hai,
so that was the lamest blog break ever, huh?
well good news, the internet is back to its lovely self, which means i was able to catch up on all my blogs and put off blogging for at least a day!
right now this key board is kinda sticky..not the gross kind, like the smudgy kind. cos i was playing with a big chunk of clay {*trying* to get it to look like ben c.} earlier while chatting with rachel earlier. good times.
right now i'm watching the office with brother, dwight is such a freak.
so my week was pretty great, i don't know why exactly cos i'm drawing a blank, but it just was.
and now for a rant...
sometimes my feels are conflicted about fandoms.
i've always been super
in to stuff. that stuff may have been faeries when i was 8, or all things sailor-pirate-peter pan when i was 11, or journaling and book collecting when i was 12 or christian bale when i was 13. actually that started earlier than that..ehe.
you name it, i like to
really be into stuff.
but you know what i don't like? when people, meaning people who don't do fandoms, make me feel inferior and ridiculous for really liking stuff. for fangirling, for jumping up and down and squealing when i realize richard armitage is in a Miss Marple show and for all those things that people like me do.
which is basically just getting
unnecessarily necessarily excited about things we like.
when they're all "
ugh, i just don't get it."
i just wanna look at them and say, "
i'm sorry, i'm so, so sorry."
i recently had someone give me a super un-approving look when i explained my "i *heart heart* the Doctor" pin. psshh. poor soul.
but you know
why i feel conflicted? because i understand perfectly, those people who don't fan over stuff the way fangirl/guys do. i guess its because i have enough self control to not live my life in cosplay. i see their point, and although it seems a rather boring life to live, the whole "not getting it". i still see why they might think we're utterly ridiculous. the reasons behind their inability to fan is pretty obvious to me.
geeking out is silly. but silly is good.
i've always had an irrational fear of being different, call it an insecurity.
being different has pros and cons.
i like it.
i hate it.
i don't want people thinking i'm normal.
i do want people thinking i'm normal.
do you get me?
some of this stems from having been home educated my whole life, being a shy person, and having dealt with people assuming i'm some sort of freak because i've missed out on the normal social crap that other kids deal with.
some of it stems from the fact that i
am different from what society things i should be.
i don't care about society anymore though. :D
so, to sum it up. i am, and have always been, someone who reallyreally likes to get majorly excited and in to stuff. but i do not, in any way, dislike people who don't. and i'm not really sure why i wrote all of this, but i just felt like it. and i also had all these fantastic pictures to show and they go alone perfectly with this sermon, which i hope y'all enjoyed. :)
i'm going to go read some more sherlock holmes.
stay excited.
stay silly.
stay beautiful.
xox-noni