the last month has been really hard on all of my family, my grandma fell a month ago and fractured her pelvis in 2 spots. then just about a week ago she got a 3rd fracture.
my grandma and grandpa are divorced, my grandpa is a really hard person, he tends to make situations really stressfull. and now that my grandma is staying with us, its hard. she's in a lot of pain, needing constant attention. all we can do is ask for patience with everything.
on top of family problems, i'm facing my own questions and problems, but i'm sorting through those at a decent pace.
today i spent my day bored to death, i wanted someone to talk to, but no body was around, and i always feel like i say to much and no one knows how to reply to me.
that really doesn't happen often. the being bored that is. i like to be able to focus on things and get stuff done. for some reason i just couldn't today.
but then i finally got some alone time. no body was ringing for me, no one was bothering me, no visitors, just me.
i didn't realize how badly i needed to be alone.
while cleaning my room i just took it all to Him. i should have done so sooner, but i procrastinated, watched to much merlin, stared at the chat bar to long and didn't finish my doughnut. but finally, i just let it go. life is to short to constantly be worried, un-focused and confused. i know i have a purpose in this life, and thats to serve Him and bring glory to Him in everything i do.
well today, i wasn't doing that. and i'm sorry.
He shouldn't ever be my last resort, He should be my first and only resort.
i'm not trying to be all gushy or anything, i'm just so happy He died for ME. little ole' worthless and confused sinner i am, He loves me.
ok, i'm done with expressing my joy over my Savior.
|because you know, baby chicks are cute and all;)|
I do not give to you as the world gives.
Do not let you hearts be troubled and do not be afraid.