Thursday, January 2, 2014

this isn't really goodbye



http://ioabos.blogspot.com/
click on le image to go to my new blog!


unless, of course, you decide not to head over to my new space and keep up with me there.

then this would be goodbye, but i hope not..?

yes, yes. i have a new blog to start off this new year. i've been working on it for a few months now, and of course, it isn't actually ready. but, it's up and there's a follow me gadget at the very bottom. which isn't hard to find, since there aren't any posts yet. ha. so yeah. this is my very last post on here. i'll miss this place, i've been here for 3years and it's turned into a nice little blog, but i want to start fresh. i'm super excited about this new blog. and you should be too. i have a really good feeling about it. anywho.

expect something awesome on Inside Out very soon.

xx-noni

Tuesday, December 31, 2013

reflection//bring it on


is it honestly already time for another end of the year post?
is it really already time to sigh and remark "geez. time goes so fast!"

yup. it's already that time.





when i reflect back on this year, i get a giant mix of emotions, thoughts, memories, colliding together into a chaotic mess of life.
there was adventure like i've never had before.
devastation like i never want to have again.
brokeness that's still healing.
happy times that bring smiles to my face and so much more.


this has been one of the most challenging and wonderful years of my life. 

i've lost 3 people to broken friendships in my life that i never imagined i would lose. broken friendships are the worst, and really, it never gets easier. it still makes me cringe just thinking about it. God certainly has healing yet to do in me. 

at the same time i've made so many new friends this year and i've learned soo much about making/keeping friends and what it means to be a real friend in return..
over the course of this year i met around 150 new people. i don't know if that's a lot or not..but it sure seems like a lot to me. 
at least 10-15 of those people i consider friends. that's a lot for a kid who's not very sociable and hates introducing herself and sucks as starting new friendships. 
but i'm coming out. heck, i even say things to strangers in walmart these days. i like it when i can make a stranger smile just by being friendly.

at the beginning of every year i would always tell someone the things i didn't want to happen. i'd list off all the awful things that happened the last few years and say i didn't want those things happening again. once was enough.
but life happens, and brings on nasty and good things. you can't have one without the other. and all i know is that God is faithful through it all, pulling me closer to Him through each trial.
this year has been really good for me. i can only hope that next year will bring on it's own unique bout of challenges and experiences to stretch me and grow me the way this year has.

"therefore, having been justified by faith, we have peace with God through our Lord Jesus Christ, through whom also we have access by faith into this grave in which we stand, and rejoice in hope of the glory of God.
and not only that, but we also glory in tribulations, knowing that tribulation produces perseverance;
and perseverance, character; and character, hope.
now hope does not disappoint, because the love of God has been poured out in our hearts by the Holy Spirit who was given to us."
ROMANS 5:1-5


like a lot of people, i say i haven't ever been good with new years resolutions. i don't think i even made any last year.
but this time. i have one, and it's to love God more.
just that.

but i think it'll keep me pretty busy.

xx-noni


Saturday, December 28, 2013



"it's..aggressive."
that's what he told me. 
"you have to grab my hand hard or i can't find you because i can't see where your hand is, so just. grab my hand harder this time, k?"


so i tired to take his hand more firm, i tried to be where i was supposed to be so he wouldn't have to search.

but i liked it a whole lot more when he just went after and found me anyway, knowing i wasn't so sure, all i needed was some help, all i needed was a firm grasp. all i need was some reassurance that he was leading.




the more i live, the more i see how intense life is. life is lived intensely. to make it you have to be aggressive, you have to dive in head first. you have to be brave.
you can't be afraid of anything, not of messing up or looking like a fool.
you just have to do it, be ok with messing up. be ok with looking like an idiot. everyone looks like an idiot.

i'm not very good at this aggressive thing.
i'm not very good at this life thing.

aggressiveness terrifies me. it inspires me, it intrigues me.

so i'm tasting little bits, here and there. trying to get used to it, learning to like it.


that moment, late at night, after a crazy night of what should have been fun but you were to shy and backwards to let lose. that moment when you're on the verge of tears just because you're tired, and you realize. i don't have to do this.

i love that moment. i don't have to bear this load, i don't have to worry. all i have to do is keep my mind focused on Him, work hard, be honest, be brave.

He'll take care of everything.



Friday, December 27, 2013


yesterday i took my drivers test and passed, today i went and got my license.
and then mum dropped me off at work, and after my shift was over, i drove myself home for the first time ever.




it.
was.
awesome.

i know.. i know...i'm 19 and *just* getting my license?

ya see i was never one of those kids who was breaking their necks to do *anything* grown up.
my parent's had to practically force me to get my permit a few months ago and start driving. i just didn't want to! but, now that i'm here.
i'm so darn glad. i like driving, i really do. and i'm so grateful that i have parent's who know how to push me in the right directions. they know i'm the sort of person who needs pushed. and they know i procrastinate like no ones business.
so yeah. 
it's great having people in your life who help you in the areas you need it most.

i'm really glad that's over with!

^_^

xx-noni

Sunday, December 22, 2013

times like these






the past few weeks have been tough. i'm not gonna lie.
i've been stressed and tried and things have gone sour plenty of times.
but you know what? that's ok with me.

it's given me more chances to train myself to have a good attitude, work hard, speak kindly, not explode, and just go with the flow.

i'm not a dramatic person by nature, i'm very practical, no nonsense..not really the freak-out kinda person. 
but the more life tries me, the more i learn about myself. and truth is, i freak out way more than i wish i did. which of course is a lot less than lots of other people..but still.

i feel like right now is the time where it matters.
it matters how i act because i'm creating habits. i know that through life we're always creating habits. and that every time in life matters.
but right now, when i'm young, i feel like i'm more moldable. so i should pay more attention to how i act, or more importantly. react. 
 does that make sense?

i've had plenty of great opportunities to freak out and spazz this last week.
but i don't want to. i hate how it makes me feel and how it makes others feel.

so just take a deep breath, let it go.
care, but don't care to much. learn when it's ok to not care.
cos it's not always ok, but not every little thing is worth caring so much about.
you get me?

so yeah. life is great, i love where i'm at, i love what i'm doing. God is so faithful and patient with me as i'm growing. it's good to know He's got it under control.
it especially makes "letting go" way easier. 

merry Christmas, you guys and God bless!

xx-noni

Thursday, December 19, 2013

something brilliant






you know when you get done reading a book and it leaves you really excited and feeling just great and you just can't stop thinking about it?

i just read a book like that, it's called When You Reach Me by Rebecca Stead. it's one of those books that had me hooked from the first sentence. and it just seemed to get better and better. i adored her writing style, she uses a lot of short sentences. of which i'm a hard core fan of.
the plot builds slowly but interestingly, making you want to not put the book down.
this book was perfect. everything about it was stunning and brilliant. one of those rare jems that didn't lack a thing.
i started it yesterday afternoon and finished it this evening after i got off of work. it wasn't a difficult read, actually i think it may be a kids book, but i'm really not sure. i feel like anyone under the age of 12 wouldn't truly be able to appreciate the beauty of this book. at least i know i wouldn't have been able to at that age. it's a different sort of book, definitely a breath of fresh air. after reading it i feel kinda stunned, i want to start in on another book but i can't get When You Reach Me out of my head so it's kinda making all the other books taste bad even though i know they're all probably fantastic. speaking of the books i bought at the library sale, of course.
i'm not going to hint about what the book is actually about. because i went into it blind, and i feel like that made my experience all the more delightful. so if any of you decide to read this book, i hope you can go into it clueless like me. and i hope you love it a lot.

When You Reach Me has certainly left an impression on me. i'm definitely having a unique hangover from that book. 

x-noni

Wednesday, December 18, 2013

books and a hat



yesterday our library started this giant book sale, 25cents each! me and brother went before i had to work and spent about 40min browsing at least 500 books.

i ended up walking out with 20 books. i feel like it was christmas yesterday, because seriously i'm so darn excited/happy with these books! this morning i took off all those nasty library book jackets and they're all so much prettier now.
but i'm to lazy to take *another* picture of them. so yeah.


i'm gonna be busy with these for awhile, because yes, i plan on reading ALL of them.

then after work later that same day me and mom were driving around town, when i happened to take us by an antique shop i'd been wanting to stop by for weeks now. it really was quite by accident, because i had zero clue where i had taken us, and then i saw the shop and just had to stop.

i found this vintage, grey wool hat for $2! i did a major happy dance right there in the store. it's exactly what i've been searching for.


forget malls, take me to library book sales and antique shops!

xx-noni

Sunday, December 15, 2013





the semester is over.
*giant grin*
i'm so happy.

so now i have free time! here are my goals for the week:

pray
read
excersice
not get sick
draw
brainstorm
paint something
ride ellie
design 
edit
read more
ride ellie again
pray more
sleep in

and not.
stress.
out.

xx-noni


Tuesday, December 10, 2013





i don't really know what it is about those two words.
but i love them.

x-noni

Monday, December 9, 2013

a good day





i've been really happy today and i'm really enjoying this mood. i'm generally a very happy person by nature, so every time i'm ever down it's like...really weird and uncomfortable. so yeah. glad i'm not there anymore.

today i rode my Ellie, we herded cattle for fun and then walked my name in the snow. she did so great and i'm really wishing i had more time to ride her at least 3 or 4 times a week, she's so smart and learns so quickly.

today i wrapped presents and took pictures and listened to edgary meyer. it was lovely. then i went to work and everyone was kinda jolly there so we had fun. i love it when i get to have fun at work.

today was a good day. ^_^

xx-noni