Wednesday, February 29, 2012

The extra things..

Since its an extra day, I've been taking advantage and loving all the extra things around.
Since 8:30 I've been up and at it (thats an early start for me).
Had school done by around 2, then I spent hours in the back room working on my quilt.
I was unusually ornery all morning, the surprise is the morning part. ;)
All sorts of nothing has been happening today, its been awesome.

Also, take notice of the soda can picture, I'm particularly proud of that photo.<3

Now, because I'm lame and don't have anything else interesting to say today besides its so windy outside I swear all the dwarf in MO need to go in hiding, happy leap day everyone!!

Tuesday, February 28, 2012


I woke up late, was in a sluggish mood and my eyes burned horribly.
I hate allergies.
Today I did school. Doh.
I dun't like school much, but I love history. :D
Today I went on a walk w/a friend and my brother, then off to wall mart and McDonalds for lunch. Twas exciting. (hint of sarcasm there for you dull folk)
Today was cloudy, then sunny, then dull, then fun, now its tiring and I wanna go to sleep.
Today I learned that when someone doesn't want to grow, they won't want to hear the truth and you can't force anything.
Today I learned to hand it over.
Today I heard a door-mouse snore. Cutest. thing. ever.

Today, I am in the mood for Resident Evil, the best zombie movies ever.
I'm always in the mood for Resident Evil..and zombies..
Today I laughed my head off at my silly cat.
She is the weirdest thing.
Today I played my cello and scared said cat with my terrible playing of the cello.
I needed lessons today.
Today I chatted with my bestie and giggled at a boy and raised my hopes to make it to my bestie's b-day party.
Today my eyes itched so freaking bad I wanted to cry. Or kick something. It was really horrid.
Today I conquered my frustration at peoples stubbornness and stupidness.
I think I should be a hermit.
Today I stood awkwardly in wall mart for like 10min while these two odd chicks said the f-bomb every other words and acted like morons..siblings co-workers:p My heart aches for them...
Today I am glad I don't work at McD's.
Today I tried a McChicken with chipotle sauce and it was *amazing!!!

hm, Today I am trying to decide if I like this post...I feel like I said Today to like??

Monday, February 27, 2012

I'll fly away: part 2

Sometimes you find in life that your frustrated and confused.  More than sometimes.
Old things come back up to bite you and you think you can handle it.
But those band aids aren't the answer.
Sometimes it helps to just admit it.
Your frustrated, confused, you can't commandeer it all by yourself. The world has to many problems and you can't touch them all.
When I am challenged, when I feel challenged, I don't just walk away and say whatever.
I fight. I get frustrated and irritated.
If that little person is acting ugly and challenging me, and I tell them to stop because I am the authority at the moment, and they don't, they get the horns.
When I tell that little person to sit right there in time out and instead they sit almost right there, half of their little hiney is obeying you, half isn't. That's a challenge. Who will win?
Because I'm bigger and meaner and the boss? No. Because its what is best for them, and me.
When someone says something that is so ignorant, but they truly think its right, I feel like I need to correct, shed some light in their narrow minded ways. But I don't. Or shouldn't..
I see things all the time that need changed, in others, in situations, in the whole freaking world.
Guess that's just part of naturally seeing things in black and white.
But its not my place to do anything right now. Right now. I deal with me.
My mom always used to tell me this when I was little and getting in trouble for being nosy "Take care of yourself, its a full time job".
So I have learned.
I'm the watcher.
I'm the listener.
My Lord is the corrector.
You know, I believe if people would just take care of themselves first, the whole world would have a lot less hypocrites and trouble makers. In fact you can call me both, because I don't always take care of myself.
Because even those who want to do good make trouble. Even those who want to be good people, are hypocrites. In their minds they set out to do one thing, but they end up doing the opposite. In their minds.
I'm not saying to be self minded and selfish, I'm saying to deal with your problems first before you start trying to help out in the world.
Things used to make me hate. But I know that's not how I need to feel. That is sadly immature. You have to move on from the hate.
I don't like hating, I've stopped hating for awhile now.
The world makes me sad. I can't expect the world to be right. I can't expect a cat to not lick themselves, so I can't expect the world to not be evil and vile.
I can't accept the world either. I'm supposed to be different, you can't be different from something, and expect to be buddy friends with it too. It doesn't work that way. You can't peace talk with the enemy.
But you know what?
You can still love.
Because love hopes all things, we can hope for those lost.
Love is patient. They'll find their way.
Love does not rejoice in iniquity.
We rejoice in the truth.
The truth is a big thing.  I'll spend my whole life discovering it.
And I'll spend my whole life trying to share it.
(part of) the truth is this.
God is more than just love, we can't just say he's ONLY love. Wouldn't that be boxing Him in?? I think yes. It would be dumbing Him down to say he is ONLY love. Its not the truth. He has so many more wonderful characteristics than just love.
It's Spelled Love 8x10 Fine Art Photography Print - Ready To Ship For Your Valentines

I just wish this movement of youngsters could see it.
But I have found that kids like bandwagons. Especially bandwagons that are all soft and cushy and make you feel all fuzzy and wonderful inside, once they've ignored all the common sense they may or may not have that is.
There's a bandwagon going around that I've noticed as of late.
This bandwagon, or should I say lovewagon, almost remind me of woodstock. Its all about feeling good. Its about being different while not making anyone uncomfortable with what you believe. Its all about helping the animals and accusing the humans.(i had to throw that in) Its all about love. Its about accepting everything. Its about not having any strong views and stands cos you might offend someone, and because love, you know, accepts everything. And love is the only belief and stand you need.
Three men are coming down the road, 8x10 print

Its twisted. Its an oxymoron.
But I just have to keep focusing on what God is doing in my life, keep my nose in His word because that's where it belongs.
God is Just, so I needn't worry. I can just continue to stand in the truth.

part one

Sunday, February 26, 2012

Just another Sunday..

Don't you love it how just a little complaining about not knowing what to blog about, then getting a bunch of nice  comments, seems to work some sort of weird magic and suddenly your getting writers inspiration and writing all sorts of drafts to use for later uses?? I also love run on sentences, I talk in em' all the time:)
So on Sundays I like to think that I always post about my outfit I wore to church. But like I've said before, I like pretending and thinking I do cool things on a normal basis. 

I really wanted to do it again today, cos I loved what I was wearin'. 
But today was lazy, it wasn't my fault, it just was!
And it wasn't a photo shoot kinda day either. 
So I drew this horrible doodle of me instead.
In reality, I was wearing this black poncho shirt from target, and there is a huge negative photo of a butterfly printed on it. Its rad. 
And then I have these blue pants.
I love my blue pants.
And I wore my black furry fuzzy house shoes to church too.
With my Johnny Cash necklace from Rinski <3
It was a good outfit, and a good hair day, and a good day all in all. 
I ate terrible taters, and got to hold a sweet tiny baby in nursery.
<3 <3 <3

Saturday, February 25, 2012


Thats what today is turning into, a ho-hum day.
What does that even mean??
I, like many others in my bloggy world, seem to have hit a blogger stump.
I dunno what to say. What to post.
I'm not going to complain, I'll just get through it.
Inspiration will strike again! 
There are so many things I want to do this year, but for now, all I seem to be able to do it wait, quilt, and wait.
I'm making a quilt for an art show.
I also need to read Robinson Crusoe.
I want to be done. But I want to start.

I've been, once again, contemplating what this blog has to offer you, my dear readers, and even myself.
Well, if your like me, you have about 100 blogs or so that you know of, 50 or so that you check, and maybe 10 that you actually read..or look at pictures.
So, the chances of this blog actually getting read seem slimmer and slimmer the more I think of it.
But I don't blog to be read, I blog to write, because I love to write.
Its very lovely to know if someone reads it of course,  even more lovely to get a comment now and then.
But I completely understand the lack of comments, because no matter how awesome I think some blogs that I've found are, its just so hard to find the time to read them, AND comment. Now grant it, there are probably 5 or 6 blogs I never fail to read, and I typically comment.
But its hard. Even to those 5 or 6.
I love to be able to convince myself that every time I post, I have a certain subject to write about, but I also like to pretend. 

I never realize how consuming blogging can be, if only I made a buck for every hour I've spend sitting writing, revising, re-writing, staring, thinking, writing, reading, deleting, coping, pasting, I'd be rich.
But I wouldn't do this for money, cos then it would be a job, I'm not lazy, I'm just not the job type.

Now I'm thinking to myself, "where is this going??".
The answer, nowhere.
I'm afraid something has rubbed off on me.
Something that has to do with the syndrome called "what to write about?!?!!?"
Or is is boredom?

I re-wrote my about me section, you should check it out:)
Is it interesting? Silly? Or just to long?

I love details. And for some reason I always spell that word de-tail. hehe.
I hope this post hasn't completely inspired you to go jump off a cliff, or be a couch potato.
I hope it..
Did you know I think in half sentences all the time?
I also use . and , in all the wrong places. 
Yep. Its how my brain works.

Friday, February 24, 2012

I had to tell ya

I am currently listening to Randy Travis.
I never in my life thought I would be able to tell ANYONE that.
Don't get me wrong, I like country, when done by The Band Perry or Johnny Cash.
But Randy Travis?! Really...
In fact, this pandora station is playing all sorts of country/bluegrassss/gospel stuff.
What is wrong with me?
Every once in awhile I just like to listen to something different.
Just a break from my normal OC, JJ Heller, TDG, Jack Johnson, Switchfoot sorta stuff.
Its really nice! Even Randy Travis (the song is Farther Along, probably one of my most fave hymns, so good!)
"Cheer up my brother, we'll understand it, all by and by!"
I'm not really sure what to talk about today.
Thats why I'm just kinda randomly rambling.
Since I woke up this morning I've blown my nose probably 50 times. No kidding.
I also have to let you see the owl I made this morning!
I also must inform you that I am singing amazing harmony to Swing Low by Josephine Carmon.
Does it ever amazing at how many artist there are?? I could discover 10 new artist every day for the rest of my life and probably never run out! Its kinda awesome.
Ooooh, now its Give Me Jesus by Fernando Ortega.
Excuse me while I sing my heart out to this song<3
Ok , now its Mark Shultz, his voice sucks but he's a fantastic writer. :D
I had planned doing a post called "corners of my room" but I decided against. Oh now your curious;)
Now I feel rather like doing something critical on The Upsetter, but instead I think I shall go unlock another box and then make another owl.
I'm also not in the mood to blog, so yeah..
Have a loverly weekend everyone.

Thursday, February 23, 2012

A long day.

Thats today.
I've done alot today, yet I feel like I've done nothing but wast time outside and get about 3shades darker.
I tan really fast, and loose it fastly :p
For the last hour or so I've been putting up items on Etsy.
Its not my favorite job in the world.
I also decided to create a page on Facebook for my Etsy page!! Kinda wierded out.
So anyway..
The sun is going down.
I don't want it to.
The sun always goes down so fast on a beautiful warm day.
I must be off, unfortunately I have not the time, nor energy to write what I was going to write about.
Tomorrow <3

You should check out my other blog called If I Could, its my attempt at wackiness, confusion made into something that almost makes sense. But not really, I just like to fool people.

Wednesday, February 22, 2012

Not really..

I'm not really the gamer type, or should I say, the extreme gamer type.
If fact, you could say I  *hate* video games, mainly what they do to you.
I hate these guys who sit 10 hours everyday and do nothing but play games cos their to lazy to get off their butt and do something else.

Video games just kill your imagination and inspiration when played that long. They make you lazy, they take you away from your favorite hobbies (if you have any) they just. Arg. I don't like them to be played that much. I've made up my mind I won't marry a guy who loves to spend countless hours playing stupid Halo or Modern Warfare.
But. Now you can call be a hypocrite.
Because once I spent over 6hours playing Marvel Alliance, I was always Wolverine or that Fire guy, Johnny.
Yeh, that game is epic.
I've also spent numerous hours playing Gears Of War.
And Ninja+N.

That's why I don't play much of anything anymore.Not even Little Big Planet (tho I am certain that one is excellent for the imagination)
Video games are horrible for you.

My brother got a Kindle Fire last week.
So this is what I've been doing right after I'm done with school.

You could say I'm addicted, but I just need to finish all the levels and then I'm done!!!
I promise. Only a few more boxes to go, and I pretty much unlock a box a day.
I'm not an extreme gamer.
I'm just. I..well..yeah..hypocrite. 

Tuesday, February 21, 2012

Hikes in Missouri

Rene!!!!! aka Rejjelle ;)

My brother..being...himself...No actually he was trying to make an E out of his shadow:) Wasn't successful.

Missouri has it all.

We love you MO<3

Monday, February 20, 2012

So I sit here...
20 min later.
Loading 70 flipping pictures of my nice weekend with the kids.
I accidentally clicked a bookmark that is right below my search bar.
I lost ALL of my loaded pictures.
My internet is ok, like not the best, just, ok. I can stream Netflix, Hulu and Fox, but Youtube has issues frequently and photos take forever to load.
I'm slightly upset.
I know 70 is ALOT of photos to share all at once, but I narrowed it down from 150, and then lost the progress I made on them!!!
And I love these photos, every single one, I can give you a different reason why I love them.
They all have memories, I can either remember what the subject was saying, why he/she was doing what they were doing and they're all just so stinking cute.
I wanted you to have the full effect of my weekend and the time I spent with Nathaniel, Sophia and Caleb.
But I guess someone had other plans.
Because now, I just have enough time to upload a very few photos to share with you..

Do you think you can relate with me at how painful it is to narrow down how many picture you can show off? I think some of you can, cos if your like me, you take thousands of photos and you like them all.
But its actually different this time, cos I more than like them.
Each and everyone of these photos are precious to me.
They are moments.
Almost magical looking, eh?
I hope you enjoyed them as much as I do.

Saturday, February 18, 2012

You know what I'm in the mood for?
The sand and sea.
I wanna go on a boat.
I wanna stand in the low tide and let the ocean pull me in.
I wanna run on the sand and dance.
I wanna make sand angels.
I wanna leave my shoes in the car.
I wanna build a fire and sit around it playing games with my close friends.
I wanna snuggle up in blankets, let the fire go out and watch the stars.
I wanna smile.
But I'm not gonna do that today.
I'm gonna go to a birthday party.
I'm gonna enjoy being able to swallow and hear myself speak.
I'm gonna relax with some of my fave. little peeps.
I'm gonna make chicken and dumplings.
I'm gonna dance all day to OC.
I'm gonna wear fuzzy socks and my monster house shoes. 
I'm gonna watch Megamind, the single most amazing, mindbogglingly hilarious animation ever.
I'm gonna watch it for my 20th or so time and still laugh my head off at the genius of Will Farrel.
I'm gonna look out the window at this so not beachy warm weather and be happy.
I'm gonna smile.

Wherever you are, whatever your doing, smile and be happy and know.

"For God so loved the world that He gave His only begotten Son, that whoever believes in Him shall not perish but have everlasting life.
For God did not send His Son into the world to condemn the world, but that the world through Him might be saved.
He who believes in Him is not condemned; but he who does not believe is condemned already, because he has not believed in the name of the only begotten Son of God."

Friday, February 17, 2012

Well did it?!

I totally LOVE this one!!

HAHAHAAAA! this is SO me.

yes, spiders...them and alligators..oh so scary!

All but the last are spot on, Creepy...Well, I am outgoing my head, or late at night on 2 hours of sleep and a lot of sugar.. :) What were your words?
I hope these gave you a good laugh!!
I have spent like the last 2  hours just clicking through pictures on facebook laughing my head off in my head, cos laughing out loud still hurts a bit. 
I'm still happy for the smiles and endless pictures of adorable cats :)
Happy Friday, peeps <3

Thursday, February 16, 2012

the lulu monster

This is Lulu.
She's my kitty, she is often referred to as a freak of nature, a monster, or the Hitler cat (cos of her cute little half mustache)
But in truth, she's a sweetie, she's got ALOT of patience to put up with our teasing of her, and she's just to stinking cute! Her personality is out of this world hilarious, she's an awesome cat. A very strange cat, but a very awesome cat..
And seriously, she is SOO cute!!!!! <3 I mean look at that little mouth and that funny little half mustache.. ^_^ Oh, and her eyes..this pic doesn't even begin to describe how HUGE they can be.
Just like Puss in Boots.
Except apparently she's German, not Spanish..
Ahh, I love my Lulu kitty <3