Wednesday, October 30, 2013


heya folks! there are going to be a few epic changes around here. Natalia is working on a new design for my blog, and once again, it will have a different name. this will be my 3rd blog name, and although that kind of irritates me, i think i've finally settled on one that i'll keep for good. 
i'm super duper bloody excited about all this.

now there's a more personal change that i thought i'd talk about...
the past few months have been very rough, spiritually. for the past 2 or 3 weeks i've been happy, though. not on track or where i should be. but happy. i think having a job and just doing something has helped a lot  and has made me have a more positive attitude.
this past weekend was really rough. granted i was still happy and i was enjoying life and the things i do. but i made some mistakes, and i realized how empty i really felt and i just didn't know what to do. or what i wanted.
the happy couldn't mask that i was dying inside. i was putting so much crap into me. what with working in a very dark environment, and wasting time watching dumb tv shows and listening to secular music non-stop. i knew it all couldn't be good for me. so all of that, plus the fact that i was hardly ever in the word, listening to christian music, or even praying. i knew it was eating away at me. i dreaded church, i was starting to hate everyone there and i hated being there. i left discouraged and angry every time.

i simply wasn't taking anything serious. and before i knew it i found myself not caring one single bit about this faith of mine or the God i serve. i felt very done with all of it.
i had turned my back. i had turned my heart.

i was wrong, and i'm turning back now. i've turned already. and i feel alive again. i can feel God working in my heart. i know He's glad i'm back, and i'm awfully sorry for turning my heart from Him. it was a mistake, but i know He's forgiven me. His grace and patience never ceases to astound me.

i feel like the Lord has told me to stop listening to all secular music. it's only been a few days now..
and it's been really hard.
but i have to do this. i have to obey. i know it's the right thing to do and i'm tired of doing the wrong thing. i don't know how long He wants me to do this. if it's forever, or just for a season. but i do know i've never been more grateful for Switchfoot's music than i am now. ^_^

anywho. change is good. i like change, honestly. also, prayers are always appreciated. :))


Monday, October 28, 2013


today is the one month anniversary of me working at pizza hut! crazy that it's been a month already. my first night was the worst night ever, i was so shy, as i always am in new situations. i hid in the back room (worst thing to do at a new job) and one of my co-workers had to come and coax me out to learn how to make pizzas. but i've come a long way since then.

work has taught me a lot of things. it's taught me to be brave and work very hard. say things that are on my mind when it's necessary, be honest and open with everyone. fess up when i mess up, ask a LOT of questions and forget about pride. the work is easy for the most part, you have to always be paying close attention to the orders, and the most psychically taxing job is dishes. sometimes things can get very slow, and it's hard to find things to do, and not just stand around looking lazy.
the management isn't the best there, they let the workers get by with laziness, and for me that is tempting. it's hard to not take advantage of being allowed to get by with lazing around when i could be sweeping the floor or wiping something down.

the last few days of work have finally become fun. everyone is opening up to me, and i'm opening up to them.  last friday our town did trick or treating around the square, and since Pizza Hut is on the square, we all got to dress up for work. i didn't actually dress up, which is lame sauce. but i wore a giant black cape borrowed from a coworker and i had a lot of fun. i love most of the people i work with. except one guy who got mad and yelled at me last night. i don't dislike him as a person but i'd rather not work with him. :p

honestly i love my job, i'm becoming part of the work family there and it's awesome. it's challenging because the environment is very dark there. but i'm thankful to be there, and i just hope my coworkers can see Jesus in me and who knows. maybe something life changingly awesome might happen to one of them.


Saturday, October 26, 2013

:photo challenge:
day 13- flowers

 14- your shoes

:song challenge:

13- a song no one would expect you to like. uhm, this one is hard. because seeing as i like most any genre of music, no one is ever very shocked to discover songs i like.  screamo, rock, hard metal, opera, jazz, classical, country, oldies, classic rock, swing, big band, folk, mixed genre, pop, hip-hop, r&b, seriously i like it all! so honestly, i don't know what to post.
but if you want to hear something gorgeous and breath taking, then click this>[a], and fall in love.

14- a song that describes you. i have no idea. for really.
so i took a test on this site. and it said this song describes me best.

I Don't Feel Like Dancing by The Scissor Sisters




that is really quite frightening. and i died from laughing. that guy! and what he's wearing! and his dancing! 

just wow.


Friday, October 25, 2013

day 12. close up

day 13. far away
because i miss these mountains

*song challenge*

day 12- a song from a band you hate.

anything by Skrillex.

i'm not even posting a song by this guy. because i really hate him that much and if you've never heard him, then you're better off. i'm kinda irritated, i was gonna post something by family force five, but then i listened to Paycheck and i was like. woah! i like this! you should check that song out. but honesty, if you like Skrillex, please don't be offended by me saying i detest him. plenty of my friends dislike music i adore. so it's all good. :))

day 13- a guilty pleasure song.

Geek In the Pink by Jason Mraz

i listen to this song on a daily basis. xD

so i went on a walk today down to the cabin, i didn't actually make it to the cabin because i came across this tree..


 i took way to many photos and then headed home, now off to reading more and maybe a few eppys of the office later.

i hope you guys have a funtastic weekend.

-peace out

Thursday, October 24, 2013

something i made

take a book, glue a few pages together, paint both sides of the new page, until you have all the pages glued and painted up, and ta-da! you've got yourself a new book to draw, write or do whatever you want in! i paint in mine. also, i put tape along the edges of the pages to give it a neat look.

something fun

shel silverstien is the *best* poet of ever. if you haven't ever read him, and you like your brain tickled, then i suggest reading his stuff. so good!

-day10 of song challenge, a song that makes you fall asleep.

ok, so i could't find the exact song that i wanted, but i found a song by the same husband-wife band (they're christians, too, which i think is awesome) who play the double neck guitar and cello. they're music is some of the most relaxing and enchanting music i have ever heard. their softer songs are perfect for falling asleep. they make some of the most beautiful music i have ever heard or probably will ever hear in my life. not even joking. you *must* give them a listen. you won't regret it!

Asia Rains by Acoustic Eidolon

day 11, a song from your favourite band..

Always by Switchfoot

These are the scars deep in your heart
This is the place you were born
This is the hole where most of your soul comes ripping out
From the places you've been torn

yep, i adore that band more than i can express.


Wednesday, October 23, 2013

excuse me

while i listen to Walk the Moon, make myself some coffee, eat muffins and read my book.

i really have other things to do today, but none of them sound near as nice as the list above.

i think we should all spoil ourselves like this sometimes.


Tuesday, October 22, 2013

i've been waiting for today since January, or about then. because today the last book in Veronica Roth's Divergent series came out, it's called Allegiant.

and guess what? i forgot all freaking about it. i remembered like 2 days ago. but i forgot today. bla! so tomorrow before english class i shall go by walmart and buy that book, and then read it all through english class! not kidding, i have my essay written so i can just read for the rest of the class period. it's awesome.

the sad part is, i probably won't be finishing my other books anytime soon since i'll be utterly consumed in Allegiant, of course, it may not even last that long. i read Insurgent in 12hours. sad part again. i don't have 12hours straight to spare. oh well.

it's been a really good week.

finally got instagram and twitter! i know, i'm so dreadfully behind.
follow me on twitter here [1] and on instagram here [2].

peace out! 

Monday, October 21, 2013

day7. "something new"

i found this for 4 dollars at the thrift store today. original 1930's and 40's feed sack blanket. condition, mint. i'm really freaking out excited over it.

day8- was stupid so i skipped it (i told you i like cheating).

day 9- faceless portrait.

day 7, 8 and 9 of the song challeng.

7- a song that reminds me of certain event is, September by Earth Wind and Fire. my cousin's made a stupid music video along with some friends in alaska, and they forced me to be in it (i was *very* mad about it), so now every time i hear this song, i remember that night. and shudder.

8- a song i know all the words to, Time That Remains by Three Days Grace. honestly, i know the words to most songs i listen to. so i just picked a favourite by TDG.

9- a song i dance to is, Umbrella Beach by Owl City. or, almost anything by him, actually!

sooo...i don't know about you guys, but i kinda hate this challenge already. i mean, i'm going to finish it. unlike every other challenge i've ever attempted. i'm determined with this one. but yeah, blah.

anyway. i like this..

"We sat and made a list
Of all the things that we had
Down the backs of table tops
Ticket stubs and your diaries

I read them all one day
When loneliness came and you were away
Oh they told me nothing new,
But I love to read the words you used"

and i'm really tired, to tired to make this post very interesting.
i really do like this busy, work and school non-stop life. i still get some nice down time on days i don't work, so it's just really nice.

also. i'm dressing up for Halloween at work. i'm going to be johnny depp, or a hobo. or just johnny depp. because it's kinda the same thing.



Saturday, October 19, 2013

on quirkies and life

a small list of my quirks.

1-i wear moccasins around the house for the sole purpose of sliding around on the tile. why walk to the bathroom when i can glide?!

2- i must wear a hat that covers my ears during scary movies. it's like a security blanket.

3-i'm a mexican who loves fake mexican food.

4-my celebrity look alike is johnny depp.

5-ovens scare me.

6-i hate chunks in creamy food substances. like fruit in yogurt is just wrroonngg.

7- i rarely listen to music that i can't sing to.

8- my imagination has always been a realistic sort of imagination.

a small list of things i've learned about myself and life recently.

1- i second guess everything i do.

2- i don't really need many friends to be content and happy. i have my family and right now, i think that's all i really need.

3- i haven't been loving anyone lately, not even me. but that's changing now.

4- i'll get used to starting all over again, over and over.

5- i get envious over how other people are, not the lives they have.

6- it's ok to let people think that quiet is all there is to you.

 basically, let people be wrong. 



i *seriously* need there to be a day between Saturday and Sunday..or two...yeah.

Friday, October 18, 2013

Wednesday, October 16, 2013

day six of both challenges.

a childhood memory..

walnuts! when i was younger, we always picked up walnuts. i haven't done it in years, but it's a really good year for walnuts this year. so this weekend i'mma get out there and fill some bags! it should be fun, because the weather is *perfect*.

a song that reminds you of somewhere..

Camouflage by Plus One

so my sister used to listen to these guys in Mexico aaaallll the time. her past obsession with them probably out does my current obsession of Mr. Cumberbatch.
i know. it was that bad. so granted, every time i ever hear this band, i feel like i'm 5yrs old again, back in our giant blue house in Mexico. the house that had a giant, ceiling high cage/gate-ish thing for the back living room wall so you could look out on the back yard. i loved that house.

anywho. i really need to get going on this challenge thing! :p


Tuesday, October 15, 2013

today i was looking through my webcam photos, and i realized that it'd be fun to post all the photos i took this summer on my computer. granted, most are selfies, so that's meh. but they're all taken in different places in the states, canada, and alaska. and i think that's kinda cool.

well that was fun and time consuming. i really want to go back to canada next year, there won't be any alaska in the picture, but that's ok. canada was fun, too.


Thursday, October 10, 2013


i'm seriously out of it. i titled this post "coming weekend"...? and then got rid of that cos i don't have a clue why i wrote it. and now i'm editing this post for the 5th time (not kidding).
i'm grumpy.
i need a nap.

i think the only reason for this post is to tell you guys that i'm taking a break, expect me back around monday or so.


Wednesday, October 9, 2013

the moxie love has grown so much in the past few weeks, her legs are long and awkward. she's in that funny looking tween stage. not quite house broken, she spends most of her time outside with her big sister. they're really quite the adorable pair.

i've been in an artsy mood lately, it feels really good. pinterest is my main place for inspiration. while i paint or sketch i like to put Olan on shuffle.
not only am i in an artsy mood, i've been in a reading mood, too! of course, i haven't exactly been "out" of the reading mood all year, it's just a matter of having something good to read.

inspiration for this found here

i'll be honest. i've come very close to putting White Fang down several times.
its a intensely gritty book. but i can't ever do it. it's so good. jack london was a freaking genius and his descriptive skills slay me. you just gotta have a strong stomach for this one.

and i like taking pictures of random thingys around my room.


Tuesday, October 8, 2013

days 4&5 of both challenges!

#4-favourite colour

ok. so i don't have a favourite colour. honestly, i mean my top four would be blue, green, maroon, and black. and it changes pretty often.
yeah. so i made a collage of a few colourful tin covers that are hanging on my walls. they have all the colours.

love all the colours!

#5-someone(s) i love

 my nathaniel and luke.

#4- a song that makes me sad- this one is hard. because i don't listen to music that makes me sad. in fact, music rarely ever makes me sad. but there's this one song that comes on the radio every year at christmas time. it's called "christmas shoes" by newsong. and i hate it.

really people. it's so freaking sad!

#5- a song that reminds me of someone.

say by john mayer

first time i heard this one, it was with my brother-in-law, he made some joke about it that i found hilarious at the time. so now every time i hear it, i think of him.

a few random facts about lately:

-i love working at pizza hut. it's awesome.
-i finished The Office a few nights ago. cried 5 times.
-i'm on a facebook fast. feels good.
-class was cancelled today. freedom!
-it finally feels like fall outside. ^_^


Sunday, October 6, 2013

today i drank my 2nd ever Rockstar. i always for go for Monsters. because they're beautiful, ya know.
i'm incredibly hyper right now. first time in probably 2yrs an energy drink has actually worked on me! 
so anywho.

day 2 and 3 of both challenges.

#2what i wore


#2, least favourite song (aka, song i HATE)
the original oompa loompa song. >_< 

#3, a song that makes me happy.
flaws by bastille

if you've never heard of bastille, i highly suggest you give them a listen. i think they're a pretty new group. this dude's voice kills me so much. it's gorgeous. and this song certainly gives me happy chills. ^_^


Friday, October 4, 2013

haiya, peeps! how ya been? i've been doing great. this week is going by so freaking fast, i feel like monday lasted an entire week, and the rest of the week was a day. blah. weirdness.

anywho. i've decided to attempt 2 different challenges and not do either of them right. one is a song challenge that Treskie is doing, and another is one of those facebook, 30 day photo challenges. here is that one..

i figure if you want the song one, you can just go give Treskie a visit, she posted it here

and here's day one of both challenges.

self portrait.

favourite song (i'm doing current, not fave of all time, because i don't just have one).
Migraine by Twenty One Pilots

 Behind my eyelids are islands of violence
my mind shipwrecked, this is the only land my mind could find
I did not know it was such a violent island
Full of tidal waves, suicidal crazed lions
They're trying to eat me, blood running down their chin
and I know that I can fight or I can let the lion win
I begin to assemble what weapons I can find
Cause sometimes to stay alive you got to kill your mind

now i know you've all heard me rant about how much i love Twenty One Pilots, so i won't beat that horse anymore. you should just see for yourself, aye?

so, the reason i say i won't do either of these challenges right, is because for one, i won't be posting everyday, and B, i'll often times combine several days of the challenges in one post. i already have a list of the songs i'll use (it could change), and i have an idea of what i'll do for the photos. so yep. it should be fun, feel free to join, i'd love to see your photos and listen to the songs you post!


Wednesday, October 2, 2013

pointless post day

i really have no idea why i'm even attempting to blog right now.
so i decided, today is national pointless post day.
and yeh, tomorrow might just be too, if i want it to be.
"i do what i want, thor!"
i have to leave for english soon.



i was going through pinterest this mornin', and these made me giggle. and i knew this post'd need pictures so it would be even more pointless.
i'm going to do a 30day challenge on here soon.
except, ya know. i'll probably break all the rules.

ed sheeran is one ugly face ginger but ohmyword.
he's got the voice of an angel. 

so since it's national pointless post day, i got Rachel to join up with me. and you should too! go check out her's here.

i like turtles. 



one of my wonderfulest friends, Caitria, is doing a giveaway on her blog! i'm rather excite about it. check it out here. 
seriously. you don't wanna miss this one.