Monday, September 30, 2013

that awkward moment

that happened today. several times over.
 *sigh*, this happy kid is ready for sleeps.

Sunday, September 29, 2013

3 things

top to bottom:
Twenty One Pilots
Ella Fitzgerald
Call the Midwife

for the past several weeks these 3 things have taken up my free time. of course i do productive things while listening to the music bits, but heck, once Call the Midwife was on, i was helpless. that show is so dang good!! i can hardly wait for season 3! my mum is going through it right now, so i get to watch it again. *sigh*, i was born in the wrong time era. i just know it.

but then again, if i had been born then, i wouldn't have Twenty One Pilots.
and that would just be tragic.
cos they're my happy place.

anywho. strange little short post here. ah well.

peace out

oh, did i mention i work at pizza hut now? yeah. well, kinda. i mean, tomorrow is my first day.
rather excite here!

Friday, September 27, 2013

simple- a message to myself

Romans 5:1-5
5. Therefore, having been justified by faith, we have peace with God through our Lord Jesus Christ, through whom also we have access by faith into this grace in which we stand, and rejoice in hope of the glory of God. And not only that, but we also glory in tribulations, knowing that tribulation produces perseverance; and perseverance, character; and character, hope. Now hope does not disappoint, because the love of God has been poured out in our hearts by the Holy Spirit who was given to us.

it's simple, really. just don't let yourself get distracted and unbalanced. wake up from the haze. wake up to the hope. stop beating yourself down. stop finding your thrills in things that don't last. 
but don't ever stop persevering, k?


Monday, September 23, 2013

today is beautiful. i woke up determined to be happy, determined to choose smiles over frowns. i've already got a nasty frown wrinkle on my brow, not even kidding, it's there even when i'm not frowing.

so i'm blasting the big band/old jazz, window is open and i can hear the wind rustling through the dried corn stalks. life seems hopeful again. i read matthew 5 this morning and it was mighty encouraging. i'm back from class and it wasn't as bad as i thought it'd be. so yeah.
life is good and you guys rock.


Sunday, September 22, 2013

i'm tired. mentally, psychically, in my heart and soul. just tired. tired of the struggle. struggles that aren't that sad or intense and stressful compared to the struggles of others i know.
i feel guilty complaining about struggling. i don't want this space to be filled with depressing posts about the problems i have. everyone has problems and true, it doesn't hurt to tell the world about them sometimes. but right now, i'm not able to that. it wouldn't benefit me or you. i'm sorry about all the vagueness. i hate vagueness.

life seems vague sometimes.

and then it smacks you in the face first thing on a monday morning.

Friday, September 20, 2013

Quickly moving towards a storm
Moving forward, torn
In to pieces over reasons
Of what these storms are for
I don't understand why everything I adore
Takes a different form when I squint my eyes
Have you ever done that
When you squint your eyes
And your eyelashes make it look a little not right
And then when just enough light
Comes from just the right side
And you find you're not who you're suppose to be?
This is not what you're suppose to see
Please, remember me? I am suppose to be
King of a kingdom or swinging on a swing
Something happened to my imagination
This situation's becoming dire
My treehouse is on fire
And for some reason I smell gas on my hands
This is not what I had planned
This is not what I had planned. 

(lyrics from this song)


Wednesday, September 18, 2013

it's been oddly warm this september, i'm so ready for sweater weather. the past few days have been dreary and on the cooler side. it's been lovely.

there's something about this morning, something in the air, that feels really familiar. the rainy smells, the fog in our view, the cool air. i feel about 14, i feel like i should have long hair and braces again. i don't know, it's kinda weird, i haven't felt that sort of nostalgia in a long time.


Friday, September 13, 2013

Lets not try to figure out everything at once.

hello all! just dropping in real fast to let ya know that i'm busy. quite busy indeed.
here's a list of whats been happening:

-homework, loads of it.
-writing, loads of it.
-visiting with florida friends
-discovering new music. loads of it!
-taking pictures of the newest baby i know
-allergies turning into a nasty cold
-late night horror flicks
-more homework and essays to write
-getting very angry over online algebra homework
-thinking and thinking and thinking
-discovering this epic clear water river
-discovering tea that makes me sleepy
-cuddling with Moxie puppy
-working on me cooking skillz
-becoming re-addicted to pinterest

what's going to happen this weekend:

-family visits
-a funeral
-swimming and exploring said epic clear water river with the cousins
-eating yummy food
-LBP parties
-more homework
-more visits with florida friends
-not getting enough sleep
-lots of coffee drinking/sleepy tea drinking
-more late night movies
-a family reunion of sorts

amongst the busy it's been a rough past few weeks. this week especially has been one of those absolutely bleh sort of weeks. just horrid. it's like one moment my heart is at peace and the next perfect war.

but God is faithful. hard things don't last for forever, empty times fill up and hearts can be put at peace with life once again.

always remember that G>/\\/ 

oh, and this makes me smile and laugh.

like. a lot.

Tuesday, September 10, 2013

i've spent all my wishes on you

"i wish we could all go back to the days before we knew about romance and the like, the days when we were all just friends and we built forts in the woods and imagined ourselves in a world filled with fairies and dragons and pirates. i miss those days. can we please just be friends?"

Saturday, September 7, 2013

i'll be honest. i've disliked today. i mean, everything is going fine, my life is good. i'm content with how things are, i've decided thats the best way to go at it.

but today. has been bleh. put together allergies that have sunk into something worse, maybe it's a cold, perhaps i'm running a fever. and add pulled muscles in the back and you get a bleh sort of day. so all day i've chucked the allergy pills, blown the nose, and stayed laying down so i can stay out of pain.  i'm not trying to sound complainy, some days are just like this and i don't see any use in pretending like they don't happen. so i figured i may as well share the bleh days on here too. hopefully i'll be better tomorrow.

on the bright side of stuff, having a new puppy around somehow just makes everything so much better. last night i took her to a friends house for a bonfire and she was the centre of the party. she has such a sweet nature and is very smart. and ohmygosh. softest puppy ever, i can't imagine how soft a full blooded huskie puppy is, because a halfie is still so sooooffftt. i wish you could pet her. really i do.

and now i'm signing off to go lay down again cos the old back is yelling at me.
i hope you guys have been having a fantastic weekend.

"think of all the beauty left around you and be happy"~ Anne Frank


Thursday, September 5, 2013

"no man knows how bad he is till he has tried very hard to be good."~ clive staples lewis

Wednesday, September 4, 2013

quotes for today:

"i just want to make beautiful things, even if nobody cares."~Unknown

 "never love anybody who treats you like you’re ordinary."~Oscar Wilde

"wherever you are, be all there."~Jim Elliot

"you will find that it is necessary to let things go, simply for the reason that they are heavy."~Unknown

goals for today:
      be happy

over the weekend i decided to re-organize stuff. all of my books went to the book shelf, nick-knacks were moved to new homes and things were taken down and hung up. i've decided that old tin lids are perfect for walls and that i *really* need to paint that overwhelmingly yellow wall. i'm thinking something light, and calming, maybe in the blue or green family, or both. not sure yet. i just know that i really like cutting up old national geographics. :))


Tuesday, September 3, 2013

coffee and a puppy

2 things this morning that got me out of bed. knowing i was about to drink a delicious cup of coffee and play with this gorgeous lil' girl puppy. brother brought her home yesterday as a new addition to our family.

so everyone, meet the Moxie girl.

supposedly she's half huskie, but we're not so sure she has that much, but we're pretty positive she's got blue heeler. all i know is that mutts are the best and she's got the sweetest personality.

i hope you guys had a funtastic weekend!