Wednesday, June 6, 2012

let go, let God- till next time, my dears

its one of those times in life where i need a break
a much needed break
i'm not in the mood for details.
so i'll just say that for all of june and july i shant be blogging on any of my blogs.
it makes me real sad to leave y'all, but this has to happen.

i hope to take these next two months and let go. grow. learn.
become better, heal, give it all. the hard things are what matter most.
and this is gonna be hard.

so goodbye till august! 

when i come back, for one i hope y'all will have missed me terribly, and i'll have that new Nikon i've
been bragging about.
 life is good, and i can't wait to see how many books i'll read and pictures i'll paint on my break.

prayers appreciated.

Tuesday, June 5, 2012

nathaniel james

this is nathaniel, he tends to pull down his upper lip when he's 
trying to get something outta me, and one day i caught it on camera.
of course, because he's so adorable, i had to try and draw him.
love my nathaniel boy so much!!
xox, noni

i search among the clouds trying to see you

^that has nothing to do with this post. just another lyric.
have you noticed my title's rarely have anything to do with the contents of my posts?

so last night i was getting really tired of the christmas lights that were strung around my bed frame.
so i took them off and bunched them up inside my
origami ball that hangs above my desk
then i decided to start a big collage on my wall.
i'm quite in love with it.

love the lid of a hat box someone gave me. and of course, bobby darin is quite charming next to my watercolor ;)

a lil' thing i embroidered a few years ago, then today i painted that picture frame purple and cut out italy from my atlas.

Cash, painting by me, ginormous 4leaf clover, cover of an old hymnal, and triangle wall hanging, by me:)

yeah, BRIGHT yellow. eek. i'm gonna paint it blue sometime. hehe.

i'm still going to be adding to it, i'd like a few more small photographs framed to put up.
and i need feathers...
xoxo, noni

joaquin phoenix

5/30/12- using 2H, 4H, 4B, 6B lead

joaquin has always been one of those people i wanted to draw
but there are a lot of people i want to draw
and i rarely get around to it
but then a friend of mine suggested i draw him, and it was just the push i needed.

i decided to not use any smudging tools and just go with a sketchy feel.
i'm happy with how the texture turned out
 joaquin was a challenge for me, and i need more of those.
i can deffinitally see the mistakes in him, but thats fine.
with artists, we're never fully happy with most things we do.
and when we are we soar.
xox, noni

Monday, June 4, 2012

fading with the rain

the house was ginormous, the huge spiral stair case went up and up, the width of the stairs was at least 10 feet.
the circle that the stairs created must have been double that across..all was ivory and gold, with old couches on down on the main floor, there were different stairs, that somehow wound their way up to the main spiral ones.
the gold molding was blinding, the green couches paled in comparison, the tv screen seemed miles long. i never wondered where i was and why i was there.. oh yes. i wondered aimlessly, trying to get out, before they got home, i found the kids rooms, light blue, huge, un-believably huge beds complete with lofts.
stuffed animals and toys everywhere, in the corner the girl was reading, where were her parents? running down the basement stairs, i passed the trampoline in the bathroom, i came into a hardware store, it was huge, high ceilings, filled with isles of everything i could imagine.
this should make me feel giddy..but instead it had a freaky calm affect on me. but.
then panic! i had to find those yellow shoes, they had stripes, where where they. shoes upon shoes were piled on shelves next to the material department, that guy from hobby lobby was cutting up material..
stupid shoes.
suddenly i ran looking for a mirror. my hair, it was past my shoulders, long and gorgeous. i flipped it around my face. it couldn't be real..
just a dream.
i opened the door to my bedroom. it was a dream. i was going to wake up, the hair would be gone.
no. it was still there.
not possible. i didn't have hair like this. but it felt so real. strange and familiar. it made me panic more. it had to be real. if i could just keep focused on it, it wouldn't go away.
no. i tossed and turned. it was gone. i cried in my pillow.
walking out my bedroom door into the mexican village market,i saw that horrible stuffed spider that haunted me. i saw myself put on lipstick, those girls where laughing at me.
looking in the reflection of a puddle, i realized how short i was, my hair was long again, bangs cut straight across my forehead like when i was 4. but it wasn't real, not like last time.
running after my dad i left the sunny area and went under  the building to the meat section, oddly, it didn't smell bad.
chickens and voices made up the background noise. those girls where still laughing in the background.
the ground was shaking. i woke up...the hardest, loudest rain i'd ever heard in my life was pounding my window. lights went on all over the house, radio clicked and static filled the kitchen.
its just rain.
the rain lulled me to a dance, a dance with him. by the window we stood, swaying to the sound of the rain. i wasn't the type to dance, i didn't know what i was doing. but he did, so i followed him. i'm good at following.
it was like i was watching us from the outside of my room, but there i was, he was much taller than me, there was something i couldn't explain about him. but i felt him. i couldn't see his face, but i knew him. i could feel him close to me.
we swayed till the rain faded, and with it, we faded as well.

fancy this, i just took the photos today, but i wrote this "story" {if u choose to call it that} about 2 months ago.

boots in charcoal


charcoal has always been one of my favorite mediums to work in. its terribly fun and i always love the results. even if its a bad drawing, charcoal has a way of making it look pretty cool.
not to mention your hands get pretty filthy.
which is always a plus.
xox, noni

Sunday, June 3, 2012

art blog

i've been contemplating setting up an art blog.
what do you guys think, would you follow/read/browse it?
i think if i had another little corner here in bloggy world it would motivate me to draw/paint/sew a lot more. and of course, encouraging comments would always be epic and welcome.
so anywho, i'm now going to set off on the task of painting AY's face on a shirt, wish me luck!

what i wore

skirt: kholes. shirt: haven't a clue. cardigan thingy: maurices. necklas: antique. shoes: AE. earrings: ophelias. bracelet: me:)
i am really happy with this outfit i put together this morning. it could have used some pattern somewhere. but i didn't feel like wearing a scarf or flowery vest on this hot june day.
i'm horrible at guessing what style is what because i can never remember what is labeled as what.
 what styles would you categorize this outfit under? 
xox, noni

Saturday, June 2, 2012

all this time

my dear adam young, love this man to death! <no kidding there

i'm not the type of person who likes to set goals for themselves, mainly because i can never push myself to meet those goals. i want to, but i never end up actually dedicating myself enough. some say its because i don't want it bad enough, but i do..i just.. seem to not be able to work myself.
there are very few things in this world that motivate/inspire me enough to put the smack down on myself and accomplish a goal.
pathetic as that may sound. i go so far and then just lose motivation.
thats how i'm wired.
throw in a bunch of lazy and procrastination, and it can get pretty silly.
but oddly enough, i've never let it really bother me that much. because that is just me, and i'm happy being just me. i get utterly miserable when i try so hard doing something that i don't enjoy.
but you know, there's nothing wrong with trying, again and again, to work with yourself.
so thats what i'm going to try to do this month.

goals for june:
get my permit
don't forget to practice my cello every day
buy my camera {which means get a job :p }
draw at least one good drawing a week
finish my history book {i'll be so tickled if i actually accomplish that!}
go on a float trip
work on my poetic skillz
work on verbally communicating with..everyone< i truly suck at that one
learn 6 new chords on the guitar {i know 5 already!}
finish math {thats a joke}
finish sewing the blocks together for the man quilt
memorize more poems and versus
have at least one game night with friends, if not more:)
keep getting plenty of exercise!  
 do something new 

so there it is, a list of things to do -_-
let the adventure begin!!

Friday, June 1, 2012

lost in a well

may is finally over.

it was a long, hard, tough month to get through.
but its over now, and thats good.
 not all of may was horrid, just most.
 it had its good moments {thank the Lord for vacations}.
i learned a lot, and i wouldn't trade that for anything.

i can't wait to see where i'll be next may.
but boy am i glad this one is over!

~if you were a beautiful sound
in the echos all around,
then i'd be your harmony~

sorry, i just had to quote my favorite owl city lyric ;)
well one of my favorites.

now its june.
i'm excited to see what this month will bring.
hopefully more lazy days. because may was a hectic, messy, busy blur!
but whatever it does bring, i know i'll survive.
xox, noni