Tuesday, May 8, 2012

i'll be there

so maybe your sick of this flower by now, but i'm not {there are 2 newly bloomed ones!}

have i ever told you how many instruments i've attempted to become ninja at?? attempt is a good word, because thats all it was.

starting with my first insturment, here's a list off everything i've picked up and plucked a song on here and there through my life:

the spoons {look it up}
bones {you'll wanna look that up too}
penny whistle
mountain dulcimer
flute {i freaking hate that thing}

i only ever succeeded on one of those, the penny whistle {a.k.a., irish penny whistle/tin whistle} i played one in a band {yeah, like a real band that actually got paid to play}, but that was a long time ago and i only randomly pick it up to play now.
and i only ever took lessons for the mandolin, but out of 6 lessons, my teacher showed up twice. sadly, i stopped attempting to play this instrument, 
chris thile was my soul influence to play the mandolin, but i dunno, maybe it just wasn't meant to be, the mandolin is still simply amazing.
music is something i grew up on, all of my siblings play some instrument, my brother eli in fact was a real life child protege {he can hear it, play it, and make it sound amazing, its not fair and most the time i hate his guts.} and my sister, toni, she's a classically trained musician, she's got a BA or something like that in classical music, and she married a dude with amazing musical skillz.
there was a spell in my life where me and my two brother had a band like i mentioned before, and my cousins are professional bluegrass players and have been all over the country touring and all that awesome stuff.

my cousins performing at SDC in branson, mo. music is their life, and needless to say, they're amazing.

so i've always had this urge to play something, but i could never stick with anything. what makes me irritated is that i know i CAN do music, but i haven't been able to keep doing it. i'm just to moody i guess. i've always felt really like i had to play something, no one really urged me to, my family doesn't believe in forcing a kid to do something like that, but i forced myself, and failed miserably almost every time.

but last christmas i bought my cello, it wasn't cheap, and right now, thats really the only thing keeping me from ditching it as well. its a beautiful instrument, and so far i'm doing everything by ear, because thats just how i roll. but i know that with an instrument like the cello, i have to have lessons.
so today was my first cello lesson, i had to learn the proper way to hold the bow and the proper way to bow. she also tired to teach me notes. that failed, i already forgot what i'm supposed to work at or what she even said.
and it didn't help that as i was leaving i met a friend {who takes violin from my teacher} and she spoiled everything by telling me notes were just math. i was like -_- I HATE MATH.
but i'll get over that. maybe..
for the past week i've been playing my cello and the guitar every day, and i really don't want to quit.

listening to music is really important to me, i couldn't live without it. i almost always have to have music on.
and i'd love to get to the point that i couldn't live without playing it either.
so we'll see, it's gonna be an interesting adventure, because this time i'm determined, and i'm learning how to find more inspiration when i'm in a rut.

so anywho, this was a rambly kinda post, and i'm ready to stop rambling now.

of course i must ask, do you play any instrument{s}?? 


  1. Oh I know what you mean, I definitely know what you mean. That feeling where you know that you're musical enough, and you ought to be able to play an instrument. Except you don't. I think a lot of it comes down to practice, I'm not very good at practice, even when I'm taking lessons. I'm also too much of a perfectionist when it comes to creative stuff. So, so hard for me to be a beginner at something like that :p

  2. I just play the piano! :)

  3. Dude, don't ever let anyone tell you music is math. That spoils it. >.< I happen to like algebra (only because I can defeat it ;-D) but I'd never want to compare playing an instrument to math, even if I had to use math while playing. That isn't fun.

    YOU OWN A CELLO. *drool* I've been debating violin/cello/viola for a while, not like I have the money to buy one but I really would love to try some day.

    I have a piano and a guitar, and have been trying to teach myself for a while. I stink at keeping time but after about three years I'm o-k at reading notes. Yeah, three years. Don't feel bad if it takes a while, so long as you love it.

    And here is a cool website that might help you,
    even though your taking lessons. If you click on 'exercises' you can do flash card stuff that is actually kinda fun because you can always click 'reset score' and you don't feel so bad that you missed 10+%.... >.>

    *end ramble* Eh, sorry bout that! anywho.... cool post! Rock... or rather, 'bow' on!

    *canned laughter*



  4. hey! I was wondering if you would be interested in doing a guest post on my blog? (maybe about quilting, or something you enjoy?)
    I plan on having some guest posters next week and I would love it if you could!
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  5. lol. <3 <3 ur cute. Hey, Music is not like math. Believe me. I am the worlds biggest math hater. Music is beautifuller than that. *sigh* I can't even say how I feel about music. It's one of my favorite things in the world next to laughing. <3 Stick with it. Once you get there, It's totally beyond worth it. ^_^

    *in a Kip Dynamite voice* "you know I do". haha. Violin, Piano, Guitar, and anything else I can get my hands on. <3

    nope. Not sick of it. I love that flower. I think ur luckyducky to have them. lol. <3 <3


  6. I'm one of those people who've tried to play almost everything, too. I started with the recorder, added the violin, dropped the violin, started the flute, considered dropping the flute, but didn't, started piano, sometimes wish I could drop the piano, and now I love the flute, and I'm okay with playing the piano.

    The hardest part is when you think you're doing great, then your teacher corrects that, and you feel so squashed, like you just can't do it, and you feel like throwing it out the window. Then you've just got to keep doing it. Keep practising. (I have to remind myself of this all the time.)

    Try taking a notebook to you cello lessons and write down what your teacher says straight away. I do that, otherwise I'd be constantly forgetting what scales I'm up to. ;)

    Just remember to have fun! (I have to remember that one a lot, too.) :)

  7. Thanks for all the feed back everyone!! loved hearing from ya <3

  8. I agree with you, being able to play an instrument is like listening into another world. I play piano and guitar quite well. Maybe it's just me, but before I start playing I usually have a "can't be bothered" kind of feeling, but once my fingers warm up and I play I just don't want to stop!