today is beautiful. i woke up determined to be happy, determined to choose smiles over frowns. i've already got a nasty frown wrinkle on my brow, not even kidding, it's there even when i'm not frowing.
so i'm blasting the big band/old jazz, window is open and i can hear the wind rustling through the dried corn stalks. life seems hopeful again. i read matthew 5 this morning and it was mighty encouraging. i'm back from class and it wasn't as bad as i thought it'd be. so yeah.
life is good and you guys rock.
xx-noni
Hey darling, I wanted to see if you were alright. I know you said that you decided to be happy. But your post still seems melancholy... I don't know how to describe it. But, I guess your posts as of late, seem to have that blueish tint to it. I can't really describe it... except that I know sometime last year, I had that blueish tint to my postings. I guess I was in a place where I knew I should be happy and wanted to be happy, but I wasn't. I was just bored with life and constantly trying to make it exciting even if it felt pointless. I would like indulge in happy sayings or pictures of adventure and knowing and reminding that life is short, and yet I still felt like I was coming up short and was bored and not happy. Now, I'm happier. I don't know when it changed, but it did, and I did. I don't how it happened though. I just know that I was living life and getting into the word and holding onto God's promises for my life and instead of trying to make my life adventurous or great, deciding to let Him guide it and praying that I could somehow impact people's lives and then taking opportunities as I saw them. And I did, I helped out and volunteered. I was able to share the Gospel with a few of my friends, and on God's terms, not mine, because He did provide a chance to talk about religion with them. And now, I'm really busy with life and God has blessed me with photography job opportunities, and I know I'm where I need to be. I don't know how I got there, but I got there. And I don't know everything, but on the offchance that you are in the grey area I was in last year, of waiting and hoping and wishing and wanting but not having anything change or happening and having the blueish tint to my life, I guess I just wanted to encourage you to not give up. To keep having hope. To keep creating, praying, praising in the meantime, and obviously I can't predict the future, but maybe one day or few days all of the sudden your life will change and you won't be in a grey area any more, you'll be happy and know what to do and everything will make sense.
ReplyDeleteI'm so glad you're feeling happier. (you are, right?) :D Cheers! ox
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