times like these

the past few weeks have been tough. i'm not gonna lie.

i've been stressed and tried and things have gone sour plenty of times.

but you know what? that's ok with me.

it's given me more chances to train myself to have a good attitude, work hard, speak kindly, not explode, and just go with the flow.

i'm not a dramatic person by nature, i'm very practical, no nonsense..not really the freak-out kinda person. 

but the more life tries me, the more i learn about myself. and truth is, i freak out way more than i wish i did. which of course is a lot less than lots of other people..but still.

i feel like right now is the time where it matters.

it matters how i act because i'm creating habits. i know that through life we're always creating habits. and that every time in life matters.

but right now, when i'm young, i feel like i'm more moldable. so i should pay more attention to how i act, or more importantly. react. 

 does that make sense?

i've had plenty of great opportunities to freak out and spazz this last week.

but i don't want to. i hate how it makes me feel and how it makes others feel.

so just take a deep breath, let it go.

care, but don't care to much. learn when it's ok to not care.

cos it's not always ok, but not every little thing is worth caring so much about.

you get me?

so yeah. life is great, i love where i'm at, i love what i'm doing. God is so faithful and patient with me as i'm growing. it's good to know He's got it under control.

it especially makes "letting go" way easier. 

merry Christmas, you guys and God bless!

xx-noni